Mi Vida

so this is where my Life has lead? This place of Speechlessness

The Place where my worries don't seem to exist & reckless feelings take me over?

These feelings are so adolescent making my heart go wild
How did this come about?
late night conversations, Random smiley's, wink's and Blushes
Words that touch our very soul's when even thought...

Who's to say where anything will lead?..
I'm to say because what's going on, is something so mind blowing it's incomprehensible to a person outside my mind frame and feelings.



I not angry nor sad, neither depressed or empty
I'm the complete opposite and it's weird, Ive grown accustomed to being lonely and used to it
I have the sudden urge to climb the highest building and scream to the world


this isint a new feeling but it's just so overwhelming that i feel like a kid again
that has a crush and is writing little note's and cutting out valentine cards in the shapes of hearts
this has to be the most open note ive ever written and the process of even writing it is so confusing
plain and simply because im still in shock about how good, unique, unselfish, considerate, honest, heart felt, passionate, motivated, conscious, beautiful, sexy, adorable she is, just every single detail about her is extraordinary


nothing in this note even came out remotely how i wanted it to, nothing is in order, nothing is within context of where it should be, but the point is it's there and that's exactly how i feel inside'

i have random outburst's and desires to go and see her at every waking second,
i dream of her because she makes me dream, day dream, noon dream every thing dream,
makes me wanna be a better person, move on in life, make something out of myself so that she can be proud of me,
makes me think about the future and how i can keep her in it,
Her kiss replay's in my head over and over making me go insane the first time i held her hand makes my soul burn, the first time i gazed into her eyes my heart started feeling again.
She's all Ive ever wanted and all i hope she need's.




Now i Sit here at the cross roads of my life and the hope she brings into my life has no words that can ever be described.