Late night "Bedrock Instrumental" scripture's

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Raw emotion's, poison?
na no need for potion's,
complete blessin in the flesh, her eyes keepin me focused,
got me a bit insane, to the point im hearin voices,
her's;
got me flyin thru the skies out in the open.
no seat belt' if i crash then her purpose,
is to pick up the pieces & the fragment's from the earth n
put em back together' cause in her heart in know im certain,
like id do for her she'll stitch me up like a surgeon,
lilo & stitch inseparable pair, she's my air
first time jitter's got me feelin in here
like I'm a virgin
i raided her soul like I'm an insurgent
then rescued her from distress like I'm wit secret service, it's perfect


can't you dig the reason why i did, what i did
it's cause her heart, mind, nd body's what I'm after in the end
so the story goes again, i wanna be more than a friend,
but this time its different, possibilities is endless,
so you can forget this, that, they, them,
cause in the end it's me and her' through thick & thin
wanna feel her lip's again, thoughts freeze me like manikin's
like she's been somewhere pushin buttons & making my soul rapture
but since i have her, ill do the next best thing & grab her,
show her action, nd satisfaction
knows I'm down for her like the passion, smashin
she's my fatal attraction on this planet filled with women that's always lackin,
we so way past the mackin, of my ship she's captain,
sailin the seven sea's of my mind, it's everlastin,
clutchin my hand' fastened, winking at me wit lashes,
that send me up to space wit nasa, im feelin gassed kid
so that's it, she's a keeper, never deceive her,
cause dream's is on acid when ever thought's conceive her, i need her.

Mi Vida

so this is where my Life has lead? This place of Speechlessness

The Place where my worries don't seem to exist & reckless feelings take me over?

These feelings are so adolescent making my heart go wild
How did this come about?
late night conversations, Random smiley's, wink's and Blushes
Words that touch our very soul's when even thought...

Who's to say where anything will lead?..
I'm to say because what's going on, is something so mind blowing it's incomprehensible to a person outside my mind frame and feelings.



I not angry nor sad, neither depressed or empty
I'm the complete opposite and it's weird, Ive grown accustomed to being lonely and used to it
I have the sudden urge to climb the highest building and scream to the world


this isint a new feeling but it's just so overwhelming that i feel like a kid again
that has a crush and is writing little note's and cutting out valentine cards in the shapes of hearts
this has to be the most open note ive ever written and the process of even writing it is so confusing
plain and simply because im still in shock about how good, unique, unselfish, considerate, honest, heart felt, passionate, motivated, conscious, beautiful, sexy, adorable she is, just every single detail about her is extraordinary


nothing in this note even came out remotely how i wanted it to, nothing is in order, nothing is within context of where it should be, but the point is it's there and that's exactly how i feel inside'

i have random outburst's and desires to go and see her at every waking second,
i dream of her because she makes me dream, day dream, noon dream every thing dream,
makes me wanna be a better person, move on in life, make something out of myself so that she can be proud of me,
makes me think about the future and how i can keep her in it,
Her kiss replay's in my head over and over making me go insane the first time i held her hand makes my soul burn, the first time i gazed into her eyes my heart started feeling again.
She's all Ive ever wanted and all i hope she need's.




Now i Sit here at the cross roads of my life and the hope she brings into my life has no words that can ever be described.

Para Carolina A. Villamar

A million Moons will pass and rest,
till another you is born again,
so take my hand; don't be afraid,
the past is gone & now eased,
the gift; our present' Cause what we have,
is something rare some wish they had,
my future's changed' eternally,
filled with thought's of you and me.

<3

The Past is Now forgotten,

So fuck it' it turned Rotten,

cause new's on the View & thought's of Being true,

Everything fall's into place When old thing's should be replaced,

So keep me happy babe & this smile all on my face.

Crazy Mentality

Do you wanna know who raised me?
Pac, Biggie, Nas, Pun, Big L, the WU & Slim Shady,
Ever Wonder why I'm Crazy?
Blame it on LP, 182, Staind & Bob Marley,
Who came here to Save me?
Mr.Han, The Root's, BlackStar, Common dressed in a suit,
Why am i the Next to fame B?
Cause Ms.Hill spoke, I'm an Outkast no more' she reassured me.

Manhunt live on the block,
it's what we did, cause we kid's,
till the moon rest's on top of where we hid,
we'd disperse, all scattered leavin no trace behind,
till the next mornin' 7 am, eye's cracked wide,
grab book's off to school, tryna get a better future,
but wat'd we do, cut school, finger females wrapped in Couture,
Heavy drinkin at 12, smokin spliffs in the stair's,
runnin from the super before he see's who was there,
you might ask yourselves' how'd i get so bad?
what u expect when my music was my Mom & Dad?

Do you wanna know who raised me?
Pac, Biggie, Nas, Pun, Big L, the WU & Slim Shady,
Ever Wonder why I'm Crazy?
Blame it on LP, 182, Staind & Bob Marley,
Who came here to Save me?
Mr.Han, The Root's, BlackStar, Common dressed in a suit,
Why am i the Next to fame B?
Cause Ms.Hill spoke, I'm an Outkast no more' she reassured me.


Now 18; mentality's evolved, Gwap in my jean's,
groupie hoe's hand's in my drawls,
but one thing they forgot to recall,
I'm not sane, Crazier still; my mind's completely wired wit bomb's,
Got Saddam Hussein stuffed in a wall but worst of all,
Satan's in the room 3 door's down across the hall,
Who knows when ill be safe from the raw,
fucked thought's runnin thru my mind
that got me thinkin I'm related to god.

Do you wanna know who raised me?
Pac, Biggie, Nas, Pun, Big L, the WU & Slim Shady,
Ever Wonder why I'm Crazy?
Blame it on LP, 182, Staind & Bob Marley,
Who came here to Save me?
Mr.Han, The Root's, BlackStar, Common dressed in a suit,
Why am i the Next to fame B?
Cause Ms.Hill spoke, I'm an Outkast no more' she reassured me.

that was then, this is now, i am he, they is they,
don't compare when mentality is tryna be portrayed,
i was sick, now I'm sicker, cause of life's dirty deed's,
who need's you when there's me to fulfill all their needs,
take a seat, better yet take a knee, then proceed
to leave cause peeved is what I've been at my grief,
so no more, it's enough & I'm callin the bluff's,
to erupt mass massacre's, the time is up, one.

La’ Vida

 

I've been signing I.O.U's ever since i noticed life aint what it seems,
it kill's dreams,
told a man's worth is only how he gets green,
but i screamed,
said it's lies, I'm worth way more than these feen's,
who procrastinate all day lootin money for they weed,

I'm a hard working man who's made mistakes like the best of em,
correct me if I'm right,
but I'm a real man when compared to them.
learned from mistake's that keep from committing them again,
so fend for ya self and use ya heart from now and then, "friend".

Everything im not make's me everything i am
Those word's from Yay punched right to my soul like a jab,
so i stay changin, makin my life better,
stay wit pinky cause im brain all thru out the weather,
dont look confused,
pink's a girl accused of bein perfect,
makin life worth it, while makin my heart skip verse's.

Graffiti Rape

I Got Technicolor syndrome,

Krylon Dream's,

Sharpie Shower's inject my genome's,

Paper getting slaughtered by the lead in my pencil,

while images float past my eyes in captivating detail.

Something to think about.

 

We hate Feeling Full; but we hate feeling empty,
We hate being crowded: yet we dislike being lonely,
We hate rushing; but we cant stand being slow.
Some hate working; But also being Lazy,
We dislike liar's but who likes a goody too shoes,
Un-attracted by hate but scared away by love.
People are always looking for a middle to everything whether we realize it or not,
This is why we have feeling's, to keep it all balanced,
if we completely chose one over another then feelings would be useless...
Something to think about.

Soul’s Working Overtime.

Sometimes i feel like i feel too much; If that makes sense at all. When i have something going well or bad in my life i feel it in my core, down past the bones into my soul. I feel as if this is something good because i put passion into everything but also terrifying cause if I'm ever broken down again i don't know how bad it’s going to affect me this time.

Recently I've been bitching about how shit isn't going right and what not, so i did something about it. I tried to change thing’s about me so i wouldn't have any doubt in my mind that i at least Did try & honestly shit is still going bad in some ways. I don't want to mess up or loose the good things i have in my life whether how insignificant or small they may be. I’m a man of many word’s but Simple maintenance that just want’s to be understood, Loved, Cared for, Feel like he has some value & Return all of that ten times to whom ever deserves it from me.

I’m going to hang in there because i honestly feel this is one of life's test to see if I can pick myself back up when I hit the ground running. I just want a normal life, Normal Family, Normal House, Normal Car but every aspect of life around it successful and adventurous & god damn it’ I’m going to get it thru hard work and patience.

Eternal Thought’s.

This is Blasphemy; i just met you and already i feel like telling you everything about me. Everything that makes me tick, think, live, act, inspire, feel. There’s a connection somewhere that makes me feel insane yet calm at the same time. You make me feel childish again, wanting to play hide and go seek in a field where there would only be us. Paint you a picture of how i see you in my mind & how i sense you in my aura. I want to just forget about my past and make past to remember contigo, present’s to open and live, Future’s to look forward to.

I write this because saying it isn't enough, & feeling it is confusing because how could this be? someone tell me, am i taking this too serious? i say I'm not, is that wrong? am i reaching out for something? Do i dare expose myself again after so long and of being hurt so many time’s and risking it happening quite possibly again? yes i say, I’ve gone truly mad and I'm gripping myself from letting my emotions kill me. “One step at a time” say’s the ever present presence in my mind, “yes; i know” i reply, but at the end of the night I’m still longing for something, what might it be? Could it already be in my life?

Para Mi Hermanito; Jordan.

Dear Jordan, restin in the sky,

always got my back keepin out a watchful eye,

man it's been so long.. 13 sum od year's,

soon to be another one since u was last here,

hermanito i really miss u, keep u in my dream's,

always shed a tear cause u meant the world to me,

but i know ur in a better place, far away from harm,

just know we all miss ya especially mah moms,

Peace Love.

(RIP: Jordan Rodriguez; mi hermano querido)