Letter He'll never read

He turn's to me and say's

"Son, your turning into a man, there are thing's u need to understand"

I glare with uncertainty, responding

"But you see father I'm already a man, i became one when i had to pick myself up that first time i fell learning to skate and all u did was stand there and yell"

You see i saw the future that day, i saw the Father i always had, turn into the man i wish i never met. Yes' he is my father and deserves such respect & he has that much from me. He is an honest man, hard worker, passionate, loves his family but like all old fashioned people he refuses to adjust to changing time's and also admit/give up when he's wrong.


i wish i didn't disappoint you so much, i wish i didn't somehow come between the relationship u and my mother had, i put a load on it. I became the center of many discussion's and topic's of conversations which never ended well. though i am at fault; i do not blame myself.

YOU drove yourself away from us, you had your chance to reclaim a family that was once yours. You chose to stay in Boston away from us when u could easily be living close by where Samuel could constantly see you and be with his father.



It's taking a tole..

we are all getting by just fine but we know deep down were breaking, Sometimes i think that if i hadn't become strong by watching my Mother be invincible i wouldn't be in the state of mind that I'm in, i love how i tick.

thing's change for the better and for the worse.

This is no longer a playground & my scar's have long but healed.